Metamorphmagi

i am so cold right now and i’m realizing that my bloody valentine is the greatest band. ever.

i want to close my eyes and kiss him and get drunk while loveless is playing on an infinite loop

we should meet at your place and drink beer and dance to “just like honey” all night

depressing

i wanted to go to your party. half an hour before the party started, i was still in my sweatshirt and my pyjamas. i dressed, i managed to get out of the door, i took the bus, i took the train, i stood at the train station, i wanted to walk to your house but couldn’t, i walked a bit, i sat on a bench and took the next train back home.

i worry that if you ever loved me, you now think i don’t love you, i worry that you’ve never loved me at all, i worry that you invited her to prom and not me, I WANT YOU TO ASK ME NO ONE ELSE WILL ASK ME FOR GODS SAKE, i know you’re shy but if you like me please do, please

I LOVE YOU WHY DON’T YOU GET IT

i think i love you, why can’t this just be easy

i think i’ll just stay in bed and listen to bright eyes and sunny day real estate and death cab for cutie and feel sorry for myself because

I FUCKING HATE LOVE IT DOESNT MATTER AND YET IT DOES AND I DONT KNOW IF YOU LOVE ME TOO I HAVE NO IDEA BUT HOW COULD ANYONE EVER LOVE ME BECAUSE THAT WOULD NEVER WORK

FUCK EVERYTHING

i watched a movie yesterday. it’s based on a book that’s very dear to me.

it moved me in a way i didn’t think was possible, and when it ended, i felt devastated. i cried and i cried and i cried. i fucking never cry at movies. there’s still some strange feeling lingering in my heart. i think that something has changed in me, and yeha, that sounds really pathetic, but it’s what i believe.

Mannen som elsket Yngve. read it, watch it, love it. it’s so beautiful and it’s so sad and i can’t recommend it enough.

it has the best soundtrack, by the way - love will tear us apart (i was so happy when they played it, it fits the mood of the film perfectly), just like heaven, i wanna be adored …..

the more i look for clues, little words and actions and plays on spotify, the more it seems that you might like me. me. you’re such a beautifulamazinglovelyakwardguy, and iloveyoulikemyheartisgonnaburst.

…..and yet, i don’t think you like me. at all. no one could love me, ever. it’s impossible.